Robin 3

I was looking at my butt in the mirror... I had cellulite on my thighs and on the butt... and the butt was just too big... She will be disgusted by it.
Well, I love Selena although she is slightly overweight and has cellulite... but I have never had sex with her... I wanted her as my Top, but not so much as a sexual partner...
What if Robin takes one look at me naked and tells me that she has changed her mind about me! Maybe I could call her, tell her that I am sick, and starve myself for couple of days... start exercising... and then... maybe... oh... who am I kidding... I could never starve myself... I wish I was anorexic*..
Robin was calling me! She was downstairs!

***
A stern face awaited for me behind the wheel.
- Why weren't you ready?
- I am sorry...
- I know. But, I asked you a question. - I knew the tone, so I decided to go with honesty.
- I got freaked out about my weight and I spent too much time contemplating how to avoid the part where you see it... - her face immediately brightened up, she laughed, kissed me and started the car.
- It is unavoidable, honey.

After a couple of minutes I realized that we were not going to the restaurant.
-Where are we going?
- My place. So I can see your body. We'll have dinner later.
- No, no, no... please... please... I am not ready...!
- Don't panic! - I think the whole situation was amusing her -  I'll just do something to relax you and turn your mind away from those toxic thoughts.
-What? - I wasn't sure I liked that she was amused...
- You'll see.

***
She left the keys on the counter and told me to go to the bathroom if I needed to.
I went, and I realized I was already wet! Thank god for the daily pads! I changed it and went back into the unknown.

She was sitting on the couch. She had a wooden spatula on the coffee table.

- Come here. - she pointed to the spot in front of her. I could hear my blood pumping in my ears. I must have blushed. I could see that this is just a play. She wasn't truly strict or angry. I was wet and scared at the same time.
I got to the spot, her beautiful eyes locked with mine and then I remembered the cellulite. She started lifting the skirt but I stopped her and held her hands.
- I really have cellulite.
- Honey, everybody does. - she said with a sweetest comforting smile, and then her face changed into a toppy one. - Now, let go of my hands or I am taking the spatula. - her hands free, she lifted the skirt, rolled her eyes and with a hpmf said "cellulite" which was helpful for my self-esteem, although I wasn't sure she really meant it. At least she wasn't disgusted... at least... I was hoping she wasn't...  She let my skirt fall back down, but took my forearm.
-OK, now, come here - she said as she was pulling me to her lap.
-No, no... wait, wait. -  She stopped, while still holding my forearm and waiting for me to say why she was waiting. I was incredibly nervous, despite waiting for this moment my whole life.
-Yes?
-well... nothing... I am just scared...
-Oh, you should be - she said, while suppressing a chuckle. And, then, my butt was over her lap! She held my waist to adjust the position. There were ten thousand thoughts in my head and none of them was intelligible.
 It was so wonderful, and intimate, and close, but at the same time I felt waaaay tooo exposed and I was worried I looked funny and fat and ... She put her hand on my back and the other one on my thigh.
-Better?
-No!
- Ok, breathe...- She was rubbing my back, and I started  feeling so peaceful, when a thought popped into my head:
-Am I too heavy? - I said as I was trying to get up and lift my weight off of her.
In the next second she pushed me down and started spanking sooo fast! SLAP Slap-slap-slap!
- Robin! - She lifted my skirt up and continued the speedy spanking. The noise of the slaps was so strange. I wished she would scold me, like in the stories. Also, at first I thought that her hand must hurt more than my butt but then the sting started building up.
- Honey...? Robin ?? - she was not slowing down...  This time I tried to get up because it hurt, but her hand on my back wasn't letting me budge. And the spanks became harder!! I did not expect that!
- It really hurts now!
-The next time you try to escape I am taking the spatula.
- But it hurts...
- But it's a spanking! -  She said mockingly. However she was slowing down and making the spanks lighter. She finally laid her hand on my burning butt.
- Is it over? - I was on the verge of crying. Not only because of the sting, which wasn't so bad, but because of some pent up feelings I couldn't even define,... and also because it dawned on me that I have somebody who will spank me if I make mistakes, and somebody who actually doesn't mind the things I hate about my body! I couldn't wait to kiss her and hug her.
- Almost. I will give you five spanks with the spatula just so you know what you're getting yourself into if you break the rules.
- But, Robin... - I started whining...
- Are you ready, honey?
-No.... Roooobin... - I was still whining.... when she changed her tone:
-Get ready.- splat!
-OOOOOOOOOOuch! ouu...That was baA- Ad! Ooo-one ouch was enough! Robiiiin!
-It's over now. Come - She welcomed me into a hug.
- Honey... I thought I was going to get turned on by this, but it actually hurt!
- You will get turned on when it's a play spanking, and it will hurt a whole lot more if you disobey or break any rules. - With that she hugged me and held me like she was happy I existed. My God these feelings are so wonderful, especially after years of Selena's indifference and coldness.


*(these are character's thoughts, as a writer, I am aware of the horrors of anorexia...)